It's time to face our fears...

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My own parents don’t even believe in me? They don’t think that in 5 weeks my mark for school will be good enough to let me hangout with my friends again. wow. And they don’t even say “I believe that you can do it” or anything. My mom even said “Well… looking at all the other years…”

Thanks for believing in your own daughter <3

:(

I have no feelings at the moment. Thankyou so so much, not. I hate when this happens! It happens every time that i’m either really mad or really sad, and when i calm down, all my feelings leave. I absolutely hate that you did this to me today:( but i’m going to look on the bright side, and everything happens for a reason. You don’t know how bad i just wanted to go into your arms and never let go, when you wanted that hug today. But i can’t let myself go back to where i was before, that part of me got really hurt from you. I can’t get you off my mind. It’s been six hours since i’ve scene you. I wonder if you really did want that hug or if you did that for another dare like you do, or maybe it was just to drive me nuts? I’m not going to lie; there are some days were i just want you back in my life and for us to be friends again. But every time that happens, i’m the one that ends up getting hurt! And we flirt a lot and i always get jealous of the girls you think are cute and who you have a crush on next. And there’s always going to be a part of me that will like you like before, but i don’t think i’m going to let that part of me come out anymore… 

ugh.

You make me so mad.

Can you please leave me alone? :( You played with my feelings off and on for about a year. And i didn’t quite care until the end of November because that’s when things actually started. In October, yeah i kissed you on the cheek. So what? Then you had to come to me in November and tell me you wanted this friendship to actually work and that you’re gonna try. You talked to me the whole weekend and showed me you were telling the truth. I know that i messed things up, but you did too. I honestly don’t know how you could just go ahead and play with someones feelings just like that! You asked me if i liked you. I told you i did, you said that you liked me back. We talked on the phone and you said you had to get your ex off your back. I found out later that you liked another girl too, and she had the same name. Our friendship was set on lies that you told. You deleted me off Facebook and changed your phone number three times. You pushed me out of your life but then you came and said sorry. You’re the one that knows actions count more then words and you didn’t do anything but speak. We officially ended things and didn’t talk for a week and a half and then you kissed me on new years. It’s retarded because it was a dare. Oh and you went to a girl i know and said that if she got with the guy she likes that you would then ask me out? I know things have changed, you got yourself a girl and i got myself my friends and i’m happy. I had the best week and i was telling my friends about it, and you then had to come and talk about girls? You followed me and my bestfriend around everywhere we went. You kept looking at me and trying to get my attention. But you act like a little child. I’m not saying that i don’t. Because i do. But you talk to people behind my back and you copy me just to get people to laugh? There’s a guy i know that says he’d never do that because i am who i am. I remember when you used to be like that. Then i was walking and you screamed out my name to try and get my attention. I kept on walking but you didn’t give up. My bestfriend came to come and tell me that you screamed my name because she didn’t know if i heard you or not. I went around saying good-bye to people because i had to leave and i was with my other bestfriend and you were there. I went to go and hug my other friend and you reached out and put your arm in the way and wanted a hug, i moved past you because i didn’t want one. Didn’t you noticed that? Then my friend that i was hugging tried to get us to hug and i didn’t want to, so i walked away. You then copied me again. You know the more that you do that, the more i don’t want you back in my life. It made me upset because it was just a week ago that i started to see you again. You kissed me and i didn’t end up seeing you for a month. You treated me like crap when you came back and just expect everything to be alright because you want it to be? You can’t just expect to come and give me a hug and to forget everything that’s happened. I’m not going to lie, i miss you, but you treated me terribly wrong and i deserve better. Plus you need to learn that not everything in life can be controlled by you. So please just leave me alone. At least for a couple weeks, or months. And thank gosh i have my bestfriend by my side to help me through this. By the way, you guys were like brother and sister and just because things were bad between us, you treated her bad? I’m so thankful that she’s one strong lady and can push you out of her life and see you for who you really are. When you have something meaningful to say, then come talk to me and show me that you care and want me back… in front of all my friends. If not, then i don’t need you in my life and please don’t try to come back into it. I’m completely happy without you, at the moment.